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Hope and joy are the two words I hear most associated with infertility treatment. Hope is often alongside a lot of waiting and Natascha Dea captures that in her personal experience, "Waiting," which many people will relate to. The joy comes when treatments are successful. 

/  Louise Brown, The World's First IVF Baby & Author, "Louise Brown: My Life as the World's First Test-Tube Baby"  /


Waiting is a monograph of photographs made by Natascha Dea during two rounds of IVF.

It is being released by FortyTwo Women Press in TWO Editions: A 12" x 12" LIMITED EDITION that benefits the Kevin J Lederer Life Foundation and a 6" x 9" Book store Edition Releasing in Bookstores Soon.


From Waiting

“I met the love of my life at 37—well past the age most doctors want you to be when trying to have your first baby. When our own attempts at having a baby culminated in multiple miscarriages, and countless failed pregnancy tests, we spoke with my Ob-Gyn and moved into the seemingly frightening world of fertility treatments. 

If you’ve gone through fertility treatments, you are familiar with Waiting. You wait for ultrasounds and lab work. You wait for visits with your doctor. You wait for refrigerated boxes filled with medications to arrive at your door. You wait for baseline test results, and for the phone call that tells you to begin your new cycle’s protocol. If your cycle is interrupted for any reason, you wait to begin it again. At the end of a fertility treatment, you wait for a pregnancy test. 

Each month, in between fertility cycles, you wait and hope that you might get pregnant naturally. 

While this book is about my experience waiting, we know infertility affects 1 in 8 couples. I hope the moments in this book help frame what can be a silent struggle. I hope it helps show the anxiety, fear, optimism, bravery, and strength in all who travel this path. Infertility colors your whole life. If you haven’t gone through infertility treatments, but know those who have, or are about to, I hope Waiting will help you understand their journey. If you have your experience of "Waiting," I hope this book will inspire you to share your story. ”     

 -  Natascha Dea, from the Artist's Note



Infertility is lonely.  When one is diagnosed with cancer, families and friends rally.  Meals are carefully prepared and delivered by loved ones, and often one’s community will pitch in to help with errands and tasks.  The diagnosis of infertility has been shown to be as stressful as the diagnosis of cancer.  Rarely, however, does anybody rally for infertility patients.  It is often left to the individuals to struggle in silence.  The images in this book are a powerful glimpse into the isolation that one experiences, ironically, even in a waiting room surrounded by others enduring similar experiences. 


/  Eve C. Feinberg, M.D., from the Foreward of waiting  /